ok i really dont have anything to talk about but i feel like having another journal entry. prepare ur self for rambling that u probably dont really give a shit about.

i'm totally sick of school. i waited a while for it to get better and 1stMP is almost over and no more enjoyment has come. i hate allo my classes. art is pretty good tho. spanish is alright. the rest is bullshit that i dont care about.
photographyk editing pix is kool but learning about the tools on photoshop is freaking boring
algebra:who the fuck likes math anyway?
english:we read boring stuffand write boring essays on them and dont do any fun projects
art:a lot of work but relaxing. not a bad class
PE:football is horrible. i dont like co-ed gym last year gym was amzing...
study hall:the teacher is a fucking bitch and we can't even sit where we want and her definition of loud and our's of whispering.
science, i mean "enviornmental earth":mcmanus needs to learn how to teach. i could do a better job then him. i get something cuz i already knew it and other kids dont and he tries to explain it to them and they dont get it. i actually would be able to explain it. we have tests so quickly in that class. already 2 snd he wants to squeeze one more in. not to mention his jokes are rlly bad...
spanish: i fucking love my teacher but the class is hard cuz the test r fill in the blank w/out a word bank or anything so i have to learn how to spell everything also including all the accidents. good class, just hard.
lunch:worst lunch ever. too late. i sit with 2 people...
FSC:mrs. ferguson rlly pisses me off. she is the wolds toughest grader NO KIDDING! i write the best answers i can possibly come up with USING THE TEXTBOOK for a HOMEWORK ASSIGNMENT and she takes pouints off of everything for stuff that i didnt include in my answer that the question didnt even ask for. she takes of 1/4 of a point for everything. at least not for spelling. if she did i'd fail her class.

i never see anyone anymore. i feel so distant from anyone. i feel alone. everything feels like its falling apart. nothing goes my way. everyhting good that happens to me goes rotten before the best part can come. i dont have much that i enjoy these days. everyone hates everyone and im standing in the middle of everything. i dont even know what else to say.

last year everything that was messed up and broken all fell into place and i found out who i was and where i belong. and now im starting from the begining maybe even farther. if one completely amazing thing could happen right now maybe things will start to turn around for me. if it doesnt...i dont even want to think about wut may happen...im trying to hold on the best i can. maybe im not holding on tight enough. i dont ant to fall. im trying my best. maybe ill fail but hopefully ill find something more to be happy for. i still have the most amazing friends in the world to keep me together as much as possible. i dont kno wut the end will be like...